After Thessia

He found John in his cabin, sunken against the wall in front of the aquarium. The calm blue light was the only source of lighting while the rest of the room layed in dark, deep shadows.
'Fits the current mood', he thought sarcastically, making his way over to his CO. John didn't even look up. Kaidan couldn't even tell if his eyes were closed or open, but it doesn't matter anyway. There he was, Commander Shepard, savior of the Citadel and vanquisher of the Collectors, beaten by Cerberus. Beaten by the Reaper. And blaming himself for something no one could've stopped.
Kaidan sat down next to him.
'It wasn't your fault.' - He wouldn't believe it.
'We'll make Cerberus pay.' - He wouldn't care about it right now.
'You've done everything you could.' - He would say he didn't.
All he could do was sitting next to him, looking at him, worrying about him. And after a while, John moved back a little, firmly leaning against Kaidan's chest, not saying anything at all. The biotic shifts a little, putting his hand in John's neck, gently holding him while John turns his head. He pressed his forehead against Kaidan's, eyes closed, brows furrowed, teeth gritted, thinking about what should've been, could've been and will never be at all.
John clenched his fits, fighting down all anger and despair for now, trying to focus on the task at hand. It took him a while, but finally he opened his eyes, a blue pair meeting a brown one, telling Kaidan all the things his commander doesn't want to say right now.
Kaidan didn't need a 'Thank you' or anything like this. He only needed to know that John would be alright, getting up again even though he was laying on the ground right now.
"We'll make them pay", John finally said. And the only thing Kaidan could do at this rate was to nod and to tell him that none of them would ever get tired of kicking some Cerberus' or Reaper's butts.

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Nah, I'm sorry for any mistake in the ficlet...

Credits:
Shepard by nach77
Kaidan by Goha
Shepard's cabin by AnnaShepard
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